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I want to cry, but I’m totally lost .I try to deal with this, but feel like q hostqge .I want to do something, but I can’t move any forward .I try to realize what is happening, but I can’t think , I can’t distinguish where am I ? am I on the right path ?   or should I just move ? .Everything feels like it’s going slower than normal ! than usual ? Every step I take feels like I can’t go forward. Everything ‘s leading meh backward I feel so heavy but….How am I supposed to deal with this when I’m not even here in my own body? You tell meh how am I supposed to open up and   talk when I myself cannot diagnosis whatta ‘s happening ?   is it a storm thunder ? or just   meh flipping out of bed ? My soul is far away, somewhere were nothing can reach it. Where I myself cannot , wellah I fetch for it but can hardly think of the places where I can find it I lost my way, I lost myself , that’s whatta I believe I did , yeah seems like I lost everything And   honest to...

“My name is Mallory...Dodge.” I drew in a deep breath, speaking to no one. “And I like...I like reading. And I don’t like...I don’t like who I am.”    BUCKLE UP !  i've nothing but a bunch of things to say , man ! i finished ' THE PROBLEM WITH FOREVER '  a while back and was like  : JLA , did it AGAIN ! her writing is addicting as f*** ( don't mind my language , but holy shit people she's amazing ) . The story revolves around the two major characters RIDER whose life was a total mess , filled with danger of death in no time ; and  MALLORY the  girl who's stuck in her past like a hostage in bed  . However ,  they both grew up in an abusive foster home without enough to eat hummed with fear of beating ;  Rider  took it upon himself to be Mallory's  protector and to keep her as safe as he could. Until that day, after an aggressive  violent confrontation, she disappeared and never showed up again . Years wen...

   I wonder who I was before depression got into my life. I wonder what it was like to be happy. because I can’t remember when I was happy, and the pain that’s stuck in my chest, it won’t leave. what if it never goes away?what if i persue living like this ? what if I keep feeling it  in my chest ? what if meds won’t fix meh ? what if therapist won’t be able to help meh ? what if nobody understands ? what if I die ? wouldn’t it be a great idea ? ha ? close your eyes nd lay on your bed , relax ! shut and let us imagine ! try to be J ,K Rowling for once , imagine a world where there’s no meh ? ha see ? the smile on your face you can’t help it , yessss ik I’m a burden Ik n and that’s alright , let meh tell you something ! I’m gonna be a good person and fade away where nobody ‘s there ! but you have to keep it a hush hush , Okay?

 It's that time of year again , it's time to say goodbye , it's time to reflect and stands for the farewell . Let's flip back , shall we ? At the very beginning of the year i set a list of goals that i achieved half of them and drew a different path from my current one  that' i'd go through , all that before the whirlwind took giant place and my life went through a total shift , if you asked me  that time how would i imagine myself this year ( 2017 ) i'd definitely reply saying so far away from the person i become . You know ! i was that kind of depressed girl , struggling with social anxiety , pretending doing well ... drowned in her problems , floating on the edge of memories , fights each morning to get off her bed and hardly forces her self to smile and accept her mere reality . This year was one of the hardest years in my life .Yet, the coolest and the best one as well ! Regardless of  all the pain i've been through , my life changed upside down...

Hello !  lovely bookaholics today i'm gonna talk about a book that got me blown and speechless for minutes because i didn't know whether i liked it or not , whether i am happy or angry with the author...But all i knew i had a giant argue  to make a review about it ...But, first had to filter the multiple feelings  i had by a second read ... the story follows the struggle of a Pakistani , American Muslim girl at middle school who is trying to cope the different cultures of her country and her parents country as well . and stay true to her family's ...so Amina's a simple girl who'd be so happy only by hanging out with her christian  friend , she starts growing up when  facing changes and   having a grievous   time adjusting to middle school's shifting friendships and  trying to understand  more about her traditional Muslim uncle who is visiting'em from Pakistan  take place .   Thus, the story   moves quic...

YO WASSUP !  how're you all doing ? YOHO it's been a while ... missed blogging and reviewing  man . Without further do let's jump right into it ,  so i've just finished my second read of a masterpiece of my favorite author of  this year   ( i may say she's my picked for 2017 ) which is MAYBE SOMEDAY ! i'm so in love with the plot ; the characters and everything despite the fact that Colleen i myself left meh with bunch of Q marks ?  and kept me wondering about the end . However , the book discusses the story of Sydney who falls in love with her musician neighbor , their story was so different and so original and it's really hard to be reviewing such a book , because it seriously starts with a punch right in the face ...due to Syd catching her BF of two years cheating on her with her BEST FRIEND / ROOMMATE . And when her neighbor broke the news to her about what 's going on behind her back ... she becomes so close to Ridge and  from there a frien...

Hiya  bookaholics ! how 's life treating ya so far ? Today's article  gonna be obviously about a book that has blown my mind and made me stare at the ceiling for like more than 15min  like WOW ! it's one of Colleen's baes and so mine ,  yeah some of you may guessed the book i'm talking about ...IT ENDS WITH US  yeaaaah ... So the story follows the two main characters Lily who's a hard working girl  ; graduated from college then moved to Boston , And Ryle who's a stubborn and a little arrogant and sensitively brilliant Dr , it's not about falling in love story but it has more themes than  only this... it talks about a real love and  how it feels being abused and domestically violence and much more ... This book made me sobbing for hours at some parts was like : i gotta close the book and start crying ... it really got meh  on point the way that no book has never did...And maybe because it  has a huge part of the author's  real li...